A Thousand Words

Bullets be as bullets do. Shatter the wall, go right through. Blood spills over the ground. All so quiet, can't hear a sound. No tears to cry. Hate watching it die. Anger burns deep inside. Do not know how much longer I can hide. Hide in the shadows. Hide behind a face. Hide behind a veil, thin with lace. So many times, I let it be. Let the sword kill me. Lies, hate, misunderstood. I would change it, if I only could. Never easy to lose something lost. Especially at such a great cost. Standing my ground, being me, Has become important, can't you see? Never let myself shine before. Never let my heart soar. Escape from the pain, the abuse, Will not let you accuse, Accuse me of acts I would never take, The last thing I would ever be is fake. Hurt that you can't see beyond your nose. So splitting apart goes as it goes. No words said, That haven't been read. Love still lingers, warm and true Taken for granted, by you.

With the upcoming election, I feel it is only appropriate to address my own view on it all. You see, I am about to turn 20, and have not registered to vote. Not because I do not care, but because I do. I can honestly say I do not support either candidates that are running this year. I dislike them both a great deal and honestly cannot choose one above the other. This has brought on a lot of judgement. People saying, "Oh well you HAVE to vote because it is your right!", "People FOUGHT for your right to vote!", "It is your DUTY!". Honestly though, it is just as much a right for me not to vote. That is the thing about America, the power of choice. I am obtaining from the vote because I do not want to say that I supported either party, honestly. I feel like, if I am going to vote, some part of me should support them in some way or another. I cannot say this about either candidate this election. I really cannot. To all the people judging others for not voti...

If there is anything that I have learned in life, it is that putting myself first is ok. I have always struggled with putting myself before others. I have always been that tiny piece of roadkill on the highway that gets constantly run over because it is too small and hard to see. This, I have learned, has gotten my heart into lots of trouble. I have always had an assortment of crappy friends, honestly. People with strong emotional issues. Those are the people I am naturally drawn to. I want to help others and be that one person they can talk to. Unfortunately, when you only support someone else, you eventually drown. In most friendships I have had, it has been all about keeping that person above water. And when those few times came around that I needed to breathe, I was shocked to find that person shoving my head back under the surface. Eventually, I realized I wanted someone to hold my hand while treading. Someone who can hold themselves up, like me, but still be able to connect wi...